I Shall no Longer Mourn…..

onto promises

you never kept
onto betrayal talks and texts 

you sought to satisfy your lust
not surrendering my heart onto 

you that sought boundless 

attempts to marry 
to weep onto your face 

that entwined me

with warmth kisses
onto the joyful 

days and nights

that were holding us

with all unique delight
onto your eyes and hands

that were holding in

the white candle light
onto the dancing mornings

or the long night talks

we never had a fight
onto how you

 inspired me

to do my best

giving you 

my soul and 

whole heartedly

loving you


onto how if it felt 

with my head

putting on your chest

shuffling your hair and

chant your favorite song. 
I leave you now

for I loved you

more than

you could

ever see

and more than 

you could ever experience
I will never look onto you 

with that exceeding tenderness

to keep enthralled

my pestered heart 

before your deceitful love. 

By: Abdul Samad Haidari 

About samad1986

Abdul Samad Haidari is a poet, writer, teacher and a former freelance journalist, currently residing in Indonesia as a stateless refugee. He is the author of The Red Ribbon He fled his home country at the age of seven and grew up wandering in Pakistan and Iran as a child refugee, and was separated from his family for the majority of his childhood. For two years, at the age of eight and nine, he was forced into child labour in the construction industry in Iran. In contrast, Pakistan offered refugees like him the opportunity to study and work. This education and work experience culminated in Abdul teaching computer studies and English language courses at the Intel Computer Center and Pak Oxford Professionals. After the collapse of the Taliban government, Abdul returned to Afghanistan thinking that the security situation had improved, and that he could take part in the reconstruction of his war-torn country. With this in mind, Abdul served as a freelance journalist and humanitarian aid-worker in areas of the country that remained dangerous to civilians because of the influence of terrorist groups. Abdul served with the Norwegian refugee council (NRC), ActionAid Afghanistan, Daily Outlook Afghanistan group of newspapers, and The Daily Afghanistan Express. As a freelance journalist, Abdul wrote articles and editorials about on-the-ground realities, which were then circulated widely. These had a particular focus on women and children’s rights, corruption, transparency and accountability in government, warlords and terrorist groups’ actions and the systematic persecution of minority groups in both Afghanistan and Pakistan.
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