Breathing the ashes of death

It is the second day of Eid,
locked in a quite room
with no one around to talk to…
trying to ease my longing heart
in my bare palms
that moans in separation!

In loneliness, the sorrows rise
in ailing noises from inside
like the thick smoke of
my bombed village
echoing, slamming back
the door of my chamber’s
groaning chest,
and I squeeze my arms
around my torso
in a tight hug.

They roam in and out
vanish in oblivious host –
like the saddened
shadows of Autumn.
Each strike leaves a weight
that laments its lack of mercy;
all in various ways…

I am… but only
the hard-hearted sighs,
the long-night cries,
and the self-consumer of
my own sorrows.
This life of nothingness,
this imposed life of separation
eat me like the starving worms.
@Abdul Samad Haidari

About samad1986

Abdul Samad Haidari is a poet, writer, teacher and a former freelance journalist, currently residing in Indonesia as a stateless refugee. He is the author of The Red Ribbon He fled his home country at the age of seven and grew up wandering in Pakistan and Iran as a child refugee, and was separated from his family for the majority of his childhood. For two years, at the age of eight and nine, he was forced into child labour in the construction industry in Iran. In contrast, Pakistan offered refugees like him the opportunity to study and work. This education and work experience culminated in Abdul teaching computer studies and English language courses at the Intel Computer Center and Pak Oxford Professionals. After the collapse of the Taliban government, Abdul returned to Afghanistan thinking that the security situation had improved, and that he could take part in the reconstruction of his war-torn country. With this in mind, Abdul served as a freelance journalist and humanitarian aid-worker in areas of the country that remained dangerous to civilians because of the influence of terrorist groups. Abdul served with the Norwegian refugee council (NRC), ActionAid Afghanistan, Daily Outlook Afghanistan group of newspapers, and The Daily Afghanistan Express. As a freelance journalist, Abdul wrote articles and editorials about on-the-ground realities, which were then circulated widely. These had a particular focus on women and children’s rights, corruption, transparency and accountability in government, warlords and terrorist groups’ actions and the systematic persecution of minority groups in both Afghanistan and Pakistan.
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